Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Some of my writings from the past. ~1~

She tries all she can to rub away every place he touched. She feels disgusted with her body and doesn’t even look at herself anymore. All she does is hide indoors from the world. She hides all her scars from those who could wound her with one touch. Her heart is fragile and broken. She only wants to be mended and cured of all her wounds.
She wakes up everyday with another man just to feel affection and to get attention from somebody who doesn’t love her. She toys with so many boys she’s just not human anymore. She hurts and destroys everyone around her. When looking into the mirror she able to face who she really is a just a cold-hearted queen.
Why does it seem like whenever you are happy somebody will do anything to ruin ur happiness.
When we seperate we don't only hurt eachother we also hurt the one's closest to us♥

Ahh I just want everybody and everything to go away. I just want to shut down for just a lil while. And maybe in the morning I won't feel so broken inside. And the tears that I've cried will all be dried
I'm too broken and I might not ever be fixed. Everything is going really good right now so I'm going to enjoy ever minute of it until it all disappears. ♥

Sometimes I just shut down.I become shallow and hollow.I put up a wall to block all my emotions and feelings inside away from everyone.Only to bottle them up until they come flowing out all at once.I don't want to be hurt or feel so insecure anymore.
I wanna live off my dreams and bathe in my success and be something nobody ever thought I could be. I promise I will make you proud of me.

No matter how many people surround you we were all born alone and die alone.

Each day she’s somebody different. He tells her he loves her and that she’s perfect. She
feels so pathetic and like she’s not worth it. She hates to say good bye. But he has big dreams and so much to give. While she just can’t stand to live.

I wish you could see how I see you through these eyes. Your so adorable. And your beauty compares to no other. You shine brighter then the sun. You bring everybody around you so much joy and hope. Your warmth spreads all around me. And you hold such a big place in my heart. Telling you all these things and more could never explain how truly amazing you really are.♥

It’s funny how you say those three words so carelessly. You use such cool words to sway me and mix up my feelings until I’m all confused. Just to drop me in the end and rip out my heart and tear me down. All those promises became lies. You say your sorry and play the good guy..you make it hard to be mad at you..even now you say those three little words even though I know it’s not true in the first place. I fake a smile and pretend everything is alright. Cause I will never show you all the tears I've cried.

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